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Begin [Feb. 22nd, 2008|09:57 am]
I'm walking down broadway
Each foot step is a new love letter
I'm trying to make eye contact
With each and every stranger that I pass
Thinking about the city
It's living proof people need to be together
I'm thinking about how I just want to open up
And give and give and give

And it's ok for you to care
Cause I can feel you in the air
And while you wonder "how's this gonna end?"
I only want it to begin

I'm thinking about desire
I've had to learn how to sin successfully
I'm thinking about bliss
And bliss is all dressed up
And there's no one to dance with
Remembering her smile and the nuclear bomb

And the reasons I loved her
Walking through Central Park
I'm in a foriegn country and I'm waiting for a sign
That it's ok for you to care
Cause I'm not going anywhere
And while you wonder if you should let me in
I only want it to begin

I'm still singing
Twisting new melodies, breaking arrangements
Thinking about my heart
I guess you've heard, sometimes it's heavy
But I just keep moving
When I hit a wall, I look up at the sky
I'm thinking about my maker

In spite of all this I know she won't give up on me
And its ok for you to care
Cause I can taste you everywhere
While it's true
All straight things must bend
I only want it to begin

I only want it to begin
I only want it to begin
I only want it to begin

this song is so relevant right now. i haven't had a real conversation with one of my friends for about six months (real as in honest, serious, etc). it was one of those things that i realized that i had  missed so much  and i realized that after i got this job, got busy,  i became really distant and i started isolating myself (not intentionally).  ive been struggling for some time now to break out of this depression that ive been in for the last year. she's doing something daring and spontaneous something i have never been and i want to be. basically, ive concluded that i need to do something different and see it as having fun/ experimenting without regret...
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(no subject) [Feb. 4th, 2008|12:25 pm]
I apologize to my friends who signed up for PopBandit and didn't get an activation email because its really embarrassing. That I would ask you to sign up and well, you can't. we are working on fixing the problem once our new programmer gets in. we had maybe 1 case out of 100 users and apparently, its getting to be a bigger problem. So, just bear with me while i get it sorted out.
oh and read this:

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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2008|04:43 pm]
Some of you know that ive been working on creating a new "social networking" site over the last few months. I use the term loosely because it does have a social aspect to it but its also a mashup between amazon, youtube, ilike, youtube, etc. we are working on marketing it over the next few months so as my friend, you now have the opportunity to sign up for it now: PopBandit of course, we are still working on the site so you may come across a few bugs. We are going to have a new release in a matter of a few weeks and make some more aesthetic improvements. But, please sign up and let me know what you think, if you have comments or suggestions. everything is welcome.

Now playing: The Frames - Star Star (Medley)
via FoxyTunes    
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awesome [Jan. 20th, 2008|12:44 pm]
i love robots in disguise

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random thoughts [Dec. 29th, 2007|10:03 pm]
i haven't really had any inspiration to post lately. the holidays are kinda a depressing time for me....  i can't believe its going to be 2008. ive been really bored lately and just unmotivated. its funny, the longer im here, watching and sometimes doing i realize how little i really know. not just from a work standpoint but a life standpoint and how little ive experienced. i think this insecurity is really affecting me because a few months ago i was so sure.  sometimes my job makes me feel like such an idiot and its affecting my performance and some of my decisions. i don't think of myself as an insecure person, ive always been quite confident. it must be the lack of relationships on my part. gah. please date me im "normal."

Now playing: Bryan Ferry - Dance Away
via FoxyTunes   
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happy holidays [Dec. 25th, 2007|04:02 pm]
to all my dear friends. i hope 2008 is going to be wonderful for you all.

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tori amos [Dec. 13th, 2007|11:12 am]
little earthquakes was one of those records that was life changing. The first time i saw tori, i owned little earthquakes, boys for pele and liked her. I fell in love the first time i saw her play. I remember running really late to the show and missed the first song of the set, "A Sorta Fairytale". As i get to my seat she starts playing "Precious Things" and i remember it feeling so heavy and the tears start pouring out. First time i ever cry at a show and its Tori. Fast forward 5 years later and 4 tours wishing every show that she would play "Hey Jupiter" or "Jackie's Strength".


Scarlet's walk tour: of course hearing precious things and losing it.

Lottapianos tour for Tales of a Librarian: "tear in your hand"

Sinsuality (Beekeeper) Tour: Hearing god and tori plugging in kate bush's "running up that hill"  and her cover of "We Belong" by Pat Benatar

American Doll Posse Tour: tori FINALLY playing "Hey Jupiter". i had lost hope but she played it as the last song in the encore. AMAZING and that moment just makes everything worth it. Cathy and I were crying.

review to be posted shortly.
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(no subject) [Dec. 8th, 2007|01:54 am]
so my parents are on vacation without me- they are going to singapore, malaysia, thailand, china and hong kong. they wont' be back until january and they left after thanksgiving. i was supposed to join them but due to work and the lack of organization and shystyness i can't go. anyways, my brother has been left alone for the past few weeks. i was only planning to go back to sd for christmas. but, ive been calling him for the past few days but he never returned calls or anything. i was planning on seeing the dead sea scrolls and to bring him some food. so i began to worry and drove home tonight to make sure he was still alive and that everything was okay. only problem is, my parents moved adn i don't have the house key. so i left la semi late to make sure i got home late because my brother usually goes out on friday nights. As im making the turn into the street there is a cop car blocking the entrance and he tells me to turn around and go in through the back. Again, im not familliar with the area since ive only been to the house twice. I get lost for awhile and see choppers flying overhead with the spotlight searching for someone. Im driving through the neighborhood and there are squad cars on every street, cops with flashlights out knocking on doors. At this point im really worried because1) i haven't talked to my brother in 3 weeks and 2) i don't have keys to my house and there is a fugitive roaming my neighborhood. I finally find my way after circling the neighborhood several times. I get to the front door and no keys in the plants or any other hiding places. Its dark and im thinking that maybe i shouldve gone to the store to blow some time. But, i make my way to through the backyard. its dark and my dad has been storing a bunch of shit for his work outside in tents. so, there are boxes everywhere and piled high. i check the door to see if it was unlocked of course not. i check the windows, not open due to rain. Being me, i climbed over the boxes to reach the patio and im on the second story of the house wehre i found an open window to my parent's room. at this point a police chopper is coming to my general direction. so now, im worried that they might think im a fugitive tring to break into the house. luckily, they didnt come that close and sort of flew off in another direction.  my brother finally gets home at midnight and says to me, "why are you home?" well, im home because i was worried something has happened. why didn't he pick up the phone? oh its not on.


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(no subject) [Oct. 31st, 2007|09:38 am]
i posted a bunch of new material/ show reviews on Audio Taco 
These include:

PJ Harvey
Missy Higgins
and some others. im working on the tegan and sara show review right now...

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this is a car accident [Oct. 24th, 2007|02:58 pm]
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